my memory

hi folks

2011-04-15T22:54:00.002+09:00

long mia. time to be active againnnnnn!!!!!!! and i finally found a great solution to my previous difficulty! yeahhhhhh i've created a new account, means, MORE pictureessss!!! stay tune

Nasi Kandar@ Line clear, penang

2010-08-22T13:37:00.003+09:00

arhhhh holiday gonna end in a week time but i cant really recall any nice stuff that i'd done besides than the stupid LAN sub that we were force to enroll. Arhhh wat a holiday zzzz

ok back to my food sharing session, this is the nasi kandar we at in penang and the portion is really zomg!! The people there are warmth and generous with everything that they give, curry, veggie and the chicken!!! can you see how big it is?!

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omg can you imaging how big it is? this can easily make up for my breakfast, lunch and dinner O.o ok la it was onlyme . dw was sooo excited when he saw this lol

and it doesnt cost you much!!!! imaging how much you need to pay if you eat something like this in Raju, jalan gasing??

Famous char kuey teow@ Heng Huat, penang

2010-07-29T12:50:00.005+09:00

lalalaa~~ penang food again lolx!!!

the super famous char kuey teow, you can easily recognize the char kuey teow auntie because of the big red hat she wear. the portion of this char kuey teow is quite small, but each plate of it come with a few big fresh prawns which make up for the expensive price.

i dont really fancy this as i think its TOO oily [wet and dripping with oilsSS you know] and lack of some wok hei that i want, i still prefer pj old town uncle's version!!! hihi however you can still try this as the restaurant is pack with lots of people during peak hour.

and yeah!!! they use charcoal to fried the kuey teow!!! *and this is what attracted me lol =.=*

while waiting for the char kuey teow, we ordered this. hmm ok ok only, gurney drive's rojak is the best still *for me la for me!! xD*

lol

2010-07-26T18:04:00.004+09:00

auto replaying in my mind now =.= lolx but i miss listening it with someone's company.

Time for some picturesss and homemade food!

2010-07-22T15:12:00.002+09:00

we went penang wit dw's uni fren on jan, so this is the super overdue picture that i kept for months hihi im nt going to post any picture with his fren inside as i think its quite.... err i duno i juz dun feel posting it xDDD lol

picture taken in one of his fren house.

flower? me? flower? me? xD

my bolsterrrrrr!!!! but ended up i eat the least arhhh. *im craving for chips NOW!*

jiang jiang!!!!!!!!!! my very very very veryyyyyyyyy yummy breakfast!!! combined by dw!!!!! wakakakakakaaa

tho the ingredients are all prepared by hotel xD

penang road delicacies

2010-07-20T18:21:00.003+09:00

elooo i got soo many things to share with you guys! load of delicious pictures from penang and malacca and ipoh and kl!! gah can you imaging i stuff myself with so many food in....err.... 1 year? oh god lets not imaging how well-developed my body size is *faints* i mean horizontally T_T

the okay okay char kuey teow in the shop right beside the very famous teow chew cendol.

this lobak is actually not bad tho... er i think...zzz lol cant really recall it as i ate this around..... january 10' haha dementia =(

and here's come the snowball from the cendol stall. i personally think tat the cendol is just.. ordinary and my boy says the one is ss15 is tastier lol oh well. but this snowball is.... SOO cute!! omg omg i actually mark this stall in because of this xDD you can ask the owner about this and she will make you one, cost about.... i cant really remember but it wont cost you more than RM1. try the brown sugar version!! *ok la i confessed, it taste like ice+sugar water, so oh well, me the kid likey itxDD* but hey its so nice okay, to throw it on your enemies!!!

teeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2010-07-18T23:53:00.001+09:00

no more exam!!!!! no more assignmentS!!!! wheee its holiday!!! lets party peop!

@.@

2010-07-12T19:45:00.003+09:00

i tense up because i cant feel any tension for 2molo's paper =(( and god can you please tell me what to read!! grhhh can i can i can i complain the lec for not giving a PROPER course outline?

09' xmas pressent

2010-07-11T11:37:00.009+09:00

YO WASSUP!! lol haha yea im finally back!! after so many monthssss of MIA. but hey, its not easy you know to get back my blogging mood, especially when i exceeded the picture uploading limit. xD *entries without picture are kind of..... tedious rite?*but anyway, here am i, am going to resume my blogging life and yeah, let hope im dedicated enough to keep my bloggie alive lol.

this was the cookies i bake during last yr's xmas as presssie *to save cost >.<* yea yea im kiam siap *shake shake* so WATT? xD I spend a few hours working on this you know!!! if according to idunnowhichwiseperson who says time=money, i contributed soooo many MONEY and LOVE (l-o-v-e dun write so big la i paiseh ok >///<) baking all this xD

HAND MADE!
look like taufu-pok =.=
coco crunch!
choco chips
choco rice

and jiang jiang!!!!! my hardworkkk!!!!

ok la look nt bad hor, quite lengzai lol

grhhhhh

2010-07-10T21:44:00.002+09:00

AAAAAAAAAAAAA im so so so soooo tempted to blog!!! about my life, the foodSS that i ate!! arhhhh blogspot can you be a good darling and let me extend my picture limit for FREE? xD *eye blink*

lolx

2010-03-24T14:19:00.001+09:00

偶尔神游，幻想着憧憬的未来，突然想问，我也会像他们一样那么地幸福吗？呵呵，还早呢！怎么现在就想这些。突然发现我原来是那么地没大志 xDD

hi

2010-03-10T00:29:00.003+09:00

my very dead bloggie. Sorry guys, been thinking where is the exactly suitable place for me to blog. Here? or another private blog of mine?

this guided me to think about my blogging's motivation. Why do i blog? well good question. you might think i want to blog because its a way for me to release myself. hmm not really wrong but yeah one of the biggest reason is, because i know you are reading =) what i mean you, is YOU!! everyone of you that are reading this.

look, this may sound funny but yes no matter who you are as long as you are reading this, thank you! thank you so much for willing to listen? lol read about what im writing, share along my happiness and sorrowness. especially those my fren who really busy bout their study but yet check on me time to time.

thank you. guys i know you're reading this eventho you may not comment or drop by and say a hi.

guess this is what motivate me to blog about my life so that it will be encoded forever in 'my memory'? wat's the points if i update in somewher with no-one-see? pointless right?

I...

2010-01-21T00:07:00.002+09:00

just cant stop myself from unliking them more and more.

the secret

2010-01-16T18:18:00.009+09:00

ok, im suppose to post this up right after xmas, but *point point* because of those busy peopleS laaa, we have to hold the presents for like 2-3 weeks before we manage to meet them in person, so here's the story...

[Declaration: the story below is purely a work of fiction and for entertainment purpose only. Please do not misunderstanding as we both are realllllyyy very very very kinddd and we do remember all our friends!!!!]

once upon a time, there are 2 very kind persons who always think and care about their friends. One day while they were walking aimlessly in mv, they suddenly 'remember' about 3 human being that they accidentally forgot for months.

They felt a pang of guilt in their conscience and hence forced to burn their pocket to get some fancy bimbo christmas presents for the friends. They walk tirelessly due to the big space of mv, walk walk an unending road searching for the perfect gift for their friends. Its so happens that when they passes a shop, light shone of from it inviting them in... after plotting a few steps into the shop, they saw...........

SANTA CLAUS!!!!!! [no picture xD]

without any hesitation, they grab it and run to the cashier before other peoples could do so. To make the pressie look even nicer, again they were forced to grab some accessory for decoration purpose.
once all the ingredient is gathered
they started to research on the wrapping method
twist here twist there
and yeah the 1st done!
2 done, 1 left
sud, we realized that one santa's eye is missing!! omg omg omg
so we enclose it in dw very poetics's confession letter and wrap it with ~~our unique nasi lemak wrapping skill~~ lots of loveS~~
awww look nice rite xDD [so lets see who is the fortunate one!!]

ok lastly, Please allow us to say sorry to the unfortunated 1. We really really wanted to stick it back de but it was 11pm so yeah most of the shops are close so we left no choice except dapao it along >.<

midvalley's xmas deco

2010-01-15T13:23:00.006+09:00

Hi all, uni started again omg haha, i act planned to post up my holiday from day 1 to day 21 but sadly, time flies uncounsciously [again! xD], so im left with no choice but to continue my bloggie before i forget what happen [my usual excuses xD]

so here you go, the picture we took in mv!!!
meow!! your style!! cekit ppl! xD

ok~ time to prepare myself and go uni~ bubye~ xD

coming next,
xmas pressie's secret

Bye 2009

2009-12-31T13:18:00.003+09:00

the past few days were lil miserable, but no worries, i will get tru it =)

2009 is a memorable year.
Eventho it is not as noisy as lively as 2008, but i feel warmth.
Eventho the amount of tears shedding is more than 2008, but i feel care.
Eventho everyone is far away from me to pursue their study, but i know they will be there for me when i need.
Eventho i miss 2008, but i know i will miss 2009 even more, because there's too many first time in my life that happens.
Let enjoy and appreciate our last day of 2009 =)

klang makan trip!!!

2009-12-23T22:50:00.004+09:00

Holiday day 1

famous yoyo ice

fried chicky, omama the chili sauce very nice!! But the chicken abit too oily >.< fried glass noodles yum yum~
owh owh my favourite!! OO JIAN!!!
Heavenly!!! see see, tempting tempting? xD
lastly a group picture!!
BpsychS

Lastly, Thank you Elaine for a wonderful day!!! We had lotza fun!!

HOLI DAYYYY~~~

2009-12-23T02:45:00.004+09:00

Hi everyone!!! WHEEEEE FINAL IS OVER and i got my 3 weeks holiday YEAH YEAH!! *tho 3 weeks is VERY very super short to me =/*

so right after the last paper , i went Kampachi@ Pavilion for dinner!!
grhhh no food pictures as yeah my camera spoiled =(

bubye time to sleeppppp xDD

The xmas wishlist board..

2009-12-09T12:55:00.001+09:00

i just remember i took this nyek nyek nyek~

she miss you.

2009-12-06T17:02:00.000+09:00

This simple.

2009-11-30T18:27:00.002+09:00

Christmas soon =)

people, xmas party on 25/12, anyone?

The korea bread =/

2009-11-29T13:57:00.005+09:00

haha yea, this is the brown sugar bread we brought in Ampang's KOREAN TOWN. I was like O.o when i saw it is M~~edial~~T~~emporallobe~~ [empty la xD] inside. swt?! Hmm taste.. ok ok la, din taste much of it, i wanna save my tummy's capacities for bulgolgi, bibimbap, kimchijjigae!!!

more picturies soon! :P

Christmas deco in Pavilion 09'

2009-11-26T21:36:00.007+09:00

Whee whee!! YESH Christmas is just around the corner!! omg omg i cant wait!! I want to shopping I want to hang in the mall I want to snap photo with the Christmas treeSSSSS!! But!! sadly i need to fight for my coming final that will be on 14th dec- 17th dec. How to gai gai you tell me =( arhhh so sakit hati.

Anyway, if you think this is going to stop me sneaking out from my books *sea?*, then you're wrong!! Muahahaha~ Im-still-gonna-hang-out!! xDD haha enough crap, i suppose its really been a long long time since i last update my bloggie *properly la i mean*
PPLS! pavilion's deco are awesome! go check it out!! go go go! *ask me along la if you wanna pose :P*

see see!!
TALL xmas tree!!!
look at my eye! i need more sleep ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

bollywoodness xD

the Rudolph! the Rudolph! I didnt manage to stand beside them and pose!! arhhh why must it rain arh why why!!!!
nice rite.. hZZZZZZ
as usual, press PRESS PRESS~~
yeah! i got a smaller version's Rudolph ^.^V
Time to rush for my lap report d. Bubye~

dear ccy...

2009-11-24T17:04:00.003+09:00

i miss you. And i got lot of things to tell you. I suddenly feel so stupid of me for trying so hard but people don't understand.

-你知不知道，我的每一个请求都是经过很长很长的思考，矛盾，犹豫过后鼓起勇气才能从嘴里说出来的。你知道吗？

Kucing

2009-11-21T22:57:00.001+09:00

welcome back! =)

Just give me your shoulder =)

2009-11-14T19:10:00.000+09:00

突然觉得真心话不再是能令人开心的东西。
占有终究会引发战争。
敏感，禁地，地雷。
什么时候多了那么多的顾忌，
就连一个小小的玩笑也可以演变成世界大战。
我真的很痛苦。
能不能让我回到从前，让我有个机会学习忍让，
那么结局也许不会变成这样。
我的心真的很痛，眼泪变得不在珍贵。
好怀念能够胡言乱语的我们。
一起疯颠的我们，
一起恶作剧的我们，
一起互整的我们，
互相挖苦对方的我们，
一切仿佛那么的遥远。

你知道吗？我现在已经学会了，
让眼泪无声无息的落下。
很容易嘛，还以为电影主角都是用eyemo的，原来是真的啊哈哈。

亲爱的朋友，我好想念你们，
快点回来好吗？我好久没有开开心心地过完一整天了。

Flood?

2009-11-09T17:27:00.004+09:00

ok, so this is the story. I finished my class around 2pm, rush back main campus to drive away my double parked car before other car owners is back. Was pretty satisfy with the traffic condition as i still manage to drive about average 80km/hr all along the way. So i thought i could reach back home before 230pm, finish my lunch and medication and then a nice nap before i start to work on my assignmentS. Waaaa wat a nice plan right! xD

MANA TAHU!!!!! Suddenly there's a terrible traffic jam in jalan gasing >.< hmm not to say terrible la aint you think weird? its 2pm+ and why there's so many car during this non peak hour?

before i start to mumble and complain to myself, i saw this O.o now i know what's the reason =.= it was one of the hidden pipe that are suppose to be IN the ground. And now it burst =.=
come come i show you clearer view. xD Try to avoid using this road for at least few days if you dont want to involved in the jam especially during the peak hours.

okie~ time to sleep. Bubye~

Tutti Frutti

2009-11-08T15:34:00.003+09:00

i heart this =)

very nice very fun, available in sunway pyramid, go try it out. xD I like the self svc!!!!

Laugh it loud.

2009-10-27T19:46:00.007+09:00

Just realized someone pasted my blog link in a forum, and how funny it is to see some asshole from that forum leaves comment telling that they are happily making fun of me there.

Well, what im gonna tell you is, 1st of all, this is MY BLOG. I can write whatever i wan, read properly. is WHATEVER i wan, no rules, laws and regulations. Im the king here. Anyone of you who are not happy with it can just click the red sexy X on top of your right hand side and get lost to wherever you wan. I didn't force you to be here rite.

2nd, who said i criticized and concluded that the restaurant is sucks? OPEN YOU EYE (that is if your vision receptor is still working) and look clearly I SAID SUNWAY PYRAMID's BRANCH, understand the word branch? go check your dictionary if you dont.

And pls, since when and in which part of my blog do you see the word 'food critic' ? No rite? next time, look carefully read properly before you point your fingerS. I just dont understand why people are so busybody about other's stuff.

leave your name and comment la, why want to remain as anonymous? I didnt invite you to participate in any experiment and you didnt sign any consent form to remain confidential rite?
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Immawa very the unhappy.
I just dont know why we must go through this every month?
can we like peace for a month? *finger crosses*

how sweet =)

2009-10-25T21:12:00.004+09:00

Went redbox in the garden wit a bunch of friends last fri, i finally remember to pick this song and yeah~ 2 fren of mine know about this song and sang along with me!!!! While looking at one of my friend, i suddenly think that how nice it will be if someone could sing this song to me just like how my fren sing. *nah he(i mean my fren xD) is really a shy boy hahaha~*

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever, oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know,
theyll take us where we want to go
Hold me now, touch me now
I dont want to live without you

Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
Ill never ask for more than your love
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothings gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead a way for us
Like a guiding star
Ill be there for you if you should need me
You dont have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view,
Ill help you see forever too
Hold me now, touch me now
I dont want to live without you

Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
Ill never ask for more than your love
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothings gonna change my love

Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
Ill never ask for more than your love
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothings gonna change my love for you

Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
Ill never ask for more than your love
Nothings gonna change my love for you

fingers crosses

2009-10-24T19:10:00.003+09:00

I wish we wont feel unhappy nor hurt anymore =)

cheer up.

其实很多男孩子都不知道，

2009-10-17T11:44:00.000+09:00

女孩子在冲他们发火后自己转过身却在不断啜泣。

其实很多男孩子都不知道，

女孩子从来不会真正去生他们的气，因为她是真的喜欢他在乎他。

其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子只会对自己喜欢的男生唠唠叨叨，

也只会对自己喜欢的人耍性子。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会来在乎你关心你，怕你做错事情。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会对你发火不会冲你撒娇让你哄她，

在别人面前她都是淑女。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，你根本就没有本事让她哭泣，

让她即使生气也不会超过2天。

而这一切都只是因为她喜欢你，而这一切都因为你还不够在意她不够懂她。

　　
于是，你们时常争吵，你认为她脾气不好，她认为你不够迁就她。

于是，你们总是冷战，你以为她不喜欢你，她以为你不在乎她。

于是，你们总是莫名其妙的彼此错过，也许擦身而过，本身就是一种悲伤着的无奈与幸福。
　　
要知道，凄美依然是美的一种，并且美的绚丽悲凉而沧桑，那是更加的美。

因为她喜欢你，所以她偶尔冲你发火，时常对你撒娇。

因为她喜欢你，所以她才会生你的气；

而又因为喜欢你，她才不会去生气很久。

你可知道，每个女孩子的心都是水晶做的，晶莹剔透，但是很容易就碰伤摔碎。

你可知道，每个女孩子都是不设防的，你那么轻易就闯进她的心，走的时候却只留下伤害。

她从来都不知道，这个世界上根本没有可以让她哭的人，

因为真正值得她哭的那个根本舍不得让她哭。

她会很矜持，
她会很骄傲，
她会很冷淡，
她总是嘴里说着你走开，心里却一直叫你留下。

你了解女孩吗?
　　
请你张开你的耳朵，
也请你打开你的心，
去听她心里真正的呼唤，
而不是她嘴里的口是心非。

她会看着你转身，然后她跟着你转身，当侧身而过的时候，

你看不见她的泪，滂沱在脸上心里。

如果你喜欢她，请你多陪她；
如果你喜欢她，请你多宠她；
如果你喜欢她，请你多让她。
如果你喜欢她，请你去听听她内心的声音，那是呐喊——请拥抱她。

在爱情里，总是彼此伤害，彷佛这样才能证明自己爱得激烈爱到轰轰烈烈。

可是，爱情里没有孰对孰错；

爱情里更加没有你比我多我比你少。

你爱她，她爱你，如此就已经足够。

不要试图让彼此的伤害，让彼此更加脆弱悲伤。

你们彼此相爱，你们需要的是温暖是幸福是甜蜜是快乐，不是伤害。

不要用沉默宣战，不要互不相让，

更不要什么话都不讲就冷漠离去。

要知道，你离去的时候，你的眼睛起了雾，她的眼角泛着泪光。

越是安静战火就越深，这是冷战也是彼此的伤害——

无论是怎么的复合，那些伤口曾经存在，抹不去。

请跟她一个拥抱，用你的拥抱去化解她心里的悲伤与眼角的泪水。

她喜欢你，她绝对不会拒绝你的拥抱，她只会害怕你的冷漠转身无声安静。　
　　　
请记住，相爱的人不要轻易宣战，因为冷战带来的伤害，超出你的预计。

也请记住，只要你喜欢她，没有什么是你接受不了的，

只要你喜欢她，就喜欢她的一切一切。

那么她所有的小性子所有的坏脾气所有的臭毛病，在你眼里都是撒娇。

也请记住，她喜欢你，她需要的不是你真的转身，她嘴里说着的也不是她的真心话。

她只是想你宠她，想你抱她，哪怕，没有道歉。。。

sleepless nite..

2009-10-17T02:18:00.006+09:00

lie down, turned left turned right, wake up, switch on com, switch off com, lie down again, tried to sleep, turned left turned right, wake up, switch on com.

I don't know how many times i repeated this. I just couldn't sleep, every time when i close my eye, try to sleep, things will pop into my mind, tear will start to drop, i cant sleep seriously, even tho i wants to.

Dear friend, sorry for emo and having a bad mood on this deepavali, anyway i hope no one will be like me and HAPPY DEEPAVALI!!!! Enjoy your mutton curry yea xD

WTF

2009-10-14T14:20:00.003+09:00

now i know group work can be VERY frustrating!

whats the point keep forwarding email and the so called update from you yourself if you dont want to listen to ppl's opinion? Take note its my marks OK.

Blue Blue Blueeeeeeeeeee~!

2009-10-11T01:31:00.004+09:00

When we talk about BLUE, tell me what appears in your mind!! Sky? Sea? Santorini? YEAH i love all of this but here's another BLUE stuff.
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jiang jiang!!
McD's free BLUE CocaCola glass!!

nice rite rite??lalala~ i love it i love it i love it. *shake shake*

ok im lame lalala~ xD

You know what,

2009-10-10T00:23:00.004+09:00

i just cant bear with the kind of discrimination you guys did, consciously or unconsciously its so irritating. Maybe you didnt realize that im actually surprised when you comes to me and mention that you feel so sorry for the someone. Yet, you doing it again and again.

The way you complain, the way you discriminate people, the way you handle stuff, the way you argue, i tell you, it is so freaking annoying.

And i just dont bother to talk to you

whee!

2009-10-08T19:49:00.002+09:00

i cant wait to have my turkey breast sandwich tomorrow! XD

I wanted to shout

2009-10-02T00:29:00.003+09:00

'I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!'

but, ok internal locus of control. OKAYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

-peace-

Touched? Guilty? Scare?

2009-10-02T00:00:00.001+09:00

i feel like... emo talk.

The story begins with...

2009-09-27T12:06:00.004+09:00

the 1st 'red bomb' i received in my life from elken's ex-colleague.
see the bride?? the one beside me, and i wonder where's the others =.=
selyna

PENANG!!!

2009-09-26T14:22:00.001+09:00

penang
penang
penang
penang

I WAN TO GO PENANG!!!!

Jiang jiang!!

2009-09-19T11:59:00.004+09:00

I went to a pasar ramadhan in subang on last tues to scout for dinner. Trust it or not, this is my very very very 1st time to visit the ramadhan market *jakun?? yeala i admit ish >.<*

Hmm, but actually i found its quite similar with those pasar malam except there's more variety of foods, or more precisely its all malay food there. Haha i should have take a photo and show you guys how ~~jakun~~ i am exploring the foods around =.=

lemang and the idunnowat sticky sticky stuff

lekor!!! nah of course i know what is this, i use to feed myself with lekor when im in TP and lasalle.
BBQ chicky?? you know im act O.o when someone demonstrate and take off the 2 chopsticks that folder the chicken meat. *hey i tot this is something like satay just they replace a chicky breast instead of satay meat!*i bet you guys dunno about this right!!! say you dunno!!! xD
murtabak and roti jala.
whee i heart the murtabak!!! yum yum yum~
roti john

ok after this meal im no longer a jakun! ^.^V

i was like WOW! to see so many plastic bag but the amount of food doesn't seem proportionate =/ *pray hard he wont see this pic else im DEAD omg omg! xD*

owh owh owh ya!!! holidays start today YAY!!!! whee whee!!!!! i wan MOVIE i wan SHOPPING i wan FOOD i wan BAKING!!!! anyone~~??

双子座终极完美分析

2009-09-10T21:45:00.003+09:00

有很多的朋友，可是“看起来朋友很多，可是知心的没有几个”这句话很深刻的形容了双子。双子很能说话，他跟别人可以天南地北的聊，可以聊得很八卦，也会聊一些很严肃的话题。双子可以跟你聊很多东西，可是注意了，他都只是跟你聊一些不关自己的事。随便他跟你说些什么，可是跟自己有关的都只是些皮毛而已。比如，今天又有某个明星怎样怎样了；隔壁班有多少美女帅哥的。关于自己的事，他几乎是不说的，就算是说，也是说一些关于自己无关痛痒的事。当你想更进一步的了解双子，他会很自然的把话题给扯开。

对于自信的双子来说，他又同时很没有安全感，这是双子特有的矛盾。他喜欢把自己重重包围住，不让自己暴露。对于双子来说，如果在一个还不了解的人面前把自己暴露了，就等于让别人抓住了自己的把柄。这样就失去了一定的优势。当双子感到独孤悲伤时，只会一个人躲在房间里哭，或者一个人郁闷着。

双子也很怕被伤害，很多时候宁愿自己承受一切，也不愿别人抓住自己的把柄。所以久而久之也就养成了习惯。双子基本上也是个很痛苦的人。表面上总是很有活力，很快乐的样子，可是没人的时候他又总是很忧伤。双子总会被一种莫名的悲伤笼罩。但他不会让别人发现的，他怕被伤害，也怕被别人抛弃，只能自己硬挺着一切。所以双子很神经质，精神脆弱，容易人格分裂，因为承受了太多的东西.
一般来说双子的孩子都很早熟。双子对很多的东西都在乎得要命，可是表面上就是看起来什么都不在乎。双子并不是故意要掩饰自己，上面说了，这只是一种习惯了，可是在外人看来他就成了虚伪的人。

双子是被公认的最花心、最冷酷无情的星座。其实对于双子的花心，真的不想再说些什么了。解释得太多，累了，也没耐心了。可是说起双子，就不得不提感情，双子这一生，似乎必须被感情牵伴，跟爱情纠缠一世。很多人说双子并不花心，只是博爱，所以才会有那么好的人缘。忘了在哪里看见了这样的一句话：双子最大的悲哀在于有两个人的思想，却只有一个人的身体，双子有爱自己所爱的人的权利，也有保护彼此所爱的人的义务，双子只剩下一个时，爱也就只剩下义务了。
我想用如来若去说的一句话给双子的花心做个总结：花心的极端就是痴心的可怕。该懂的人应该会懂的。至于冷酷无情真的不知道该从何说起。其实双子是最平和的星座，如果可以不发生冲突，都会尽量避免。双子也很少跟别人吵架，他讨厌吵架，如果是因为一些生活琐碎小事吵架，那么双子就在吵完的那一刻就把这件事给忘了；

要双子真的跟你翻脸，除非是你的所作所为或所说的话实在让双子不能忍受，这时他会很鄙视得看你一眼，然后头也不回地走掉，甚至会不给你留面子地离开。这时你一辈子也别想再和他和好了，就算有的双子碍于面子和你再成为朋友，但是他们已经对你鄙视到了极点，只不过维持着这一层不得不维持的“朋友”关系其实，很大一部分双子，对待感情是非常专一的，之所以给人留下花心的美名，是因为很少有人能够让略带童心的双子动真感情，不是双子铁石心肠，而是双子个性里面天生有一些忧郁，一些潜在的不自信，只是双子隐藏的深入，可是一旦让双子动了真感情，那么恭喜你了，双子的天真，率直，外加表达能力丰富，一定能让你获得很多快乐。

每个双子都有一个故事隐藏在心里，多数是不堪回首的往事，双子是个念旧或者说是喜欢沉浸在回忆中的星座，他（她）的这个故事通常都是因情所困，动了感情而被伤害了的双子是脆弱的，也是坚强的，他（她）可以很快的振作起来，可以当什么事都没有发生，这些都是双子演给世人看的罢了，等到夜深人静的时候，双子内心的伤痛随着血液渗透到全身，他（她）可以一整夜的去回忆之前的点点滴滴，可以一整夜的沉浸在痛苦之中，可以一整夜坐在那里发呆，但是，一旦天亮了，要出去见人了，双子马上就从痛苦中抽身而走，你看到的肯定是一个神采奕奕的双子，这就是双子，拥有双重性格的双子，一个在世人面前乐天，快乐，在孤独夜晚独自伤悲的双子。

双子的爱是最永恒的，可以付出一切，有人说我们花心，那时我们没有真正的爱，当双子爱上一个人的时候是痛苦的，因为我们太敏感。假如双子爱上了一个不爱自己的人，那莫我相信他永远都不会再爱了，当爱给过了一个人，他再也没有能力再付出了，其实太多的人都不懂我们，其实连我们自己都不懂自己，我们很会伪装，很会说谎，但我们最细腻，对感情最敏感，双子的爱与悲伤，谁又真的了解！

2009-09-08T20:21:00.001+09:00

Hoping, wishing, waiting can be very cruel at times.

my current addiction

2009-08-29T10:47:00.002+09:00

我知道- by2
從來沒想過
不能再和你牽手
委屈時候沒有你
陪著我心痛
一切都是我
太過驕縱
以為你會懂
一直忘了說
我有多感動

我知道你還是愛著我
雖然分開的理由
我們都已接受
你知道我會有多難過
所以即使到最後
還微笑著要我加油

我知道你還放不下我
閉著眼沒有回頭
我們都知道彼此心中
其實這份愛沒停過

從來沒想過
不能再和你牽手
委屈時候沒有你
陪著我心痛
一切都是我
太過驕縱
以為你會懂
一直忘了說
我有多感動

我知道你還是愛著我
雖然分開的理由
我們都已接受
你知道我會有多難過
所以即使到最後
還微笑著要我加油

我知道你還放不下我
才會在離開時
閉著眼沒有回頭
我們都知道彼此心中
其實這份愛沒停過

曾經完整幸福的夢
在腦海裡頭
我多希望你
還在我左右

我知道你還是愛著我
雖然分開的理由
我們都已接受
你知道我會有多難過
所以即使到最後
還微笑著要我加油

我知道你還放不下我
才會在離開時
閉著眼沒有回頭
答應你我會好好過
不讓這些眼淚白流

徐若暄 - 愛笑的眼睛

i know this 2 songs might sounded emo but im not ok =) Just... so in love wit them sud...

surprise!!!!

2009-08-28T23:24:00.002+09:00

Whee i'd signed my P1 today!! Which means that you will be able to see me online almost every nights if only i manage to survive myself from flocking by books and assignments :P

Wed and Thursday's orientation is perfectly alrite except the last minute very suddent on the spot pass up essay :P Anyway, our class will begins on 1st of sept and yea, im pretty excited about my course, cant wait until next tues *im sure i will regret for wat i' said xD*

Haha, my camera is still lying peacefully in my wardrobe *no money to fix la :P* hence i got noooooooo pictures to show you guys~~~ blekkkkk

Whee~~ FINALLY

2009-08-25T22:44:00.003+09:00

I'm going to start my uni life tomorrow!!!! Finally huh?? After 57196515906189 of them cabut to sarawak, sabah, kampar, setapak, cyberjaya etc etc for months.. tsk tsk..

Anyway, im getting excited now!!! Cant wait to meet some new friends there hihi. Wish me good luck yea~ XD

Hey ppls~!

2009-08-15T22:35:00.000+09:00

WELCOME BACK ! =)

Its like so long..

2009-07-12T15:46:00.003+09:00

i have not been touching my dear bloggie at all.. sob sob.

am so gonna sign up for P1 wimax and repair my camera soon!!! Before my uni start...

til then... dear reader pls be very very very patient yea~ >.<

bubupila~

2009-06-20T18:03:00.003+09:00

someone asked me to post up a picture of us when i feeling announcing. BUT!!! i think this is no longer a secret to everyone. *pointing cy's blog* ISH she published all my siasui pic!!! NUUU!!! ISH ISH!!

more bday celebration's pic coming soon.... and btw, i lost my connection again >.<

CCY im waiting for your picss!!! XD

2009-06-13T23:17:00.003+09:00

whee whee~~ i just grab this from giraffe's blog!! Not bad hor not bad hor my idea~~ *say yes!!* will update more pictures once i get them from ccy, til then, be patient yea...

tho i know this might be another empty promise..XD

Tomorrow,

2009-06-03T23:08:00.001+09:00

means so much to me, anyone of you wanna spend your dinner wit me?

act is my mummy and bro dowan me la *paiseh*

Do you know

2009-05-31T01:05:00.006+09:00

i feel so sick until i dont have any energy to talk and eat?
i feel so lonely and miserable ?
i almost fainted in my house?
i just cried?

Happie gathering lalala~

2009-05-27T01:23:00.002+09:00

KOREA ~ ISH ISH!!!! *the money look so fake hor i duno why*

the only people tat i manage to take photo with.. *uhh uhh tak puas hati!!! i mau group pic!!*

and lastly, i had a happy night!! =)

Meow's taggie~

2009-05-24T12:21:00.005+09:00

Tagged by minshi few days ago but as a professional procrastinator like me, how can i not delay this for days? XD

1.besides ur lips, where is the favourite spot to get kissed?
♥ err, neck? cheek?

2.how did you feel when you woke up this morning?
♥ *grab my phone* thinking of someone. And owh its sunday, i gonna work tomorrow!! NOOOOOOOOOO!

3.who was the last person/people you took photo with?
♥ err, group picture with linda+ cyee+ aw pinching my face =.=

4.would you consider yourself spoiled?
♥ hmm? no idea~~lalala~ :P

5.will you ever donate blood?
♥ YES YES YES TO ALL!! i love donating blood!!! *spread my dbsk love!!XD*

6.have you ever had a best friend who was of opposite sex?
♥ \(^-^)/ yes!

7.Do you want someone to be dead?
♥ erm, nola, not so serious, pokai got la..xD

8.what does your last text message say?
♥ 'waa so happy i doing stupid tag now...P&CP&CP&CP&CP&C'

9.what are you thinking right now?
♥ planning stuff? my housework? lunch's menu? trip to penang! *salute my brain's space*

10.Do you want someone to be with you right now?
♥ YES. badly.

11.what was the time you went to bed last night?
♥ 1:10am. i fell asleep =.= lalalaa~

12.where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
♥ TP's koperasi... the red colar sport tee

13.Is someone on your mind right now?
♥ hmm, yes. Always.

14.who was the last person(s) who text you?
♥ dw

woolalala~~~ i finished! PRICE PRICE KUCING I MAU PRICE!! XD

Im trying, hard.

2009-05-23T00:12:00.000+09:00

如果你气他，就想想他的好～
如果你讨厌他，就想想他的可爱～

I, just miss this sud..

2009-05-22T00:18:00.004+09:00

I miss the moment we spend together, the moment we laugh, gossip, syok sendiri, dbsk talk, girls talk... I feel so comfortable to hang out with you guys. So comfortable and i dont have to put any mask nor force myself to be mature but just be myself, the original childish annoying me.

Nah ms ypm i dont know you will see this anot, but i sud miss the moment when we took the rogol picture..XD nah not bully you!!! Tat's the way we show our love!!! wakakaaka!

But truthfully, im glad to know you girls. You guys are the only gang that i can crazy with. *oppieS my other half CCY also la XDD*

set yourself free for our dinner k? Let me reload my phone then i'll msg you girls, til then, hang in here =)

Welcome back!!

2009-05-21T22:07:00.002+09:00

Big clap for my sayang aka kucing aka minshi!!!! *clap clap*

Arhhhh, i feel like driving to puchong N.O.W to rob your things and photos!!! Let go out yumcha asap k?????

EVERYONE HEAR ME?? HALOOOOOOOOOO~~~~~~~~~~

I miss the warmth

2009-05-19T23:02:00.004+09:00

puppy's embrace is just like an addiction, so irresistible...

Maybe i shud get myself a big sexy handsome doggie like golden retriever to be my personal pillow, let me hug over the night and play with him when im insomnia. Woah! sounds great! Hmmm *leave my @#!$@!!#!###$! allergy prob aside 1st XDD*

Krispy Kreme@ Times Square

2009-05-17T15:02:00.005+09:00

Your are codrially invited to the first Krispy Kreme store opening in Malaysia. See you there on the 27th April (Monday), 10:00am at the Main Entrance of Berjaya Times Square.
Be the first 300 Krispy Kreme Customers & WIN…

First Customer:
Golden Ticket
- One Year Supply*

Second Customer:
Silver Ticket
- 6 Months Supply*

Third Customer:
Bronze Ticket
- 3 Months Supply*

4th-100th Customer:
A Month Treat, 1 Month Supply*

101th - 300th Customer:
1 Coffee

* Terms & Conditions Apply

Spotted this few weeks ago and i must admit that the golden ticket sound soooooo attractive to me. One year supply wei! Which means i can feed everyone with donuts and bring unlimited ~~obesity, diabetes,cholesterol....yadda yadda health problem~~ happiness to them.

But, 27/4 was a monday and as usual i will be dreaming in my office while waiting for the time to pass. *lifeless huh? sigh* So, let say goodbye my golden ticket >.<

Anyway, we manage to get ourselves there right on sat (2/5/09) *just few days after!!!* hmm hmm not bad hor? XD Salute our kiasu spirit!!!
you can see the process where they fry and coat the donuts with icing and chocostrawberryvanilaalmondandidunnowat

the queue

here come the donut!!!!

i personally think that the donut is just so so for me as they dont taste as nice as what i imaging and it's kinda sweet for me... hmm, but the original glaze is good, soft texture and goes perfect with the sugar coated layer.

Nah i tried at least ^.^v

LOVE STORY VS VIVA LA VIDA?!

2009-05-16T00:33:00.000+09:00

a nice piece =)

cheer everyone!!!

2009-05-12T23:56:00.000+09:00

MUSIC IS MY BEST FREN! =)

Me?? XD

2009-05-10T14:13:00.002+09:00

i just did an psyco test, let see wat i got.. lalala~

-you are a person who is keeping things to yourself
-you are a bit more choosy on friends and only hang out with those whom you think are on the same frequency
-what you want in your life is half fullfilled
-you are weak in your life and tends to be fragile
-when your partner is around, you will stick around with him/her most of the time.
-even when your partner is not around, you will still think of her and and will be loyal to him/her, not flirting around with others.
-average ego
-humble personality
- average bond with your friends
-your partner is pure and good in your heart.
-your partner is a very homely and humble person.

accurate? i dont know, actually there's still more result but...hmm nothing to share bout tat la..:P, so anyone interested on this test? xD

Reasons?

2009-05-10T00:12:00.003+09:00

i just ~~scare~~ hate being alone.
and
i dont get why i emo so frequent recently.
or
maybe i know but i just dont want to know?

Read this =)

2009-05-08T23:18:00.002+09:00

Since the day you left without a word of goodbye
I feel that the scenery around me had changed.
The promise I made
that I would become your everything
and the incomplete memories
have also changed.

When you were crying by yourself back then,
if only I had run to you
you would still be by my side.
If I was given one more chance,
I would tell you once again
that I love you.
But the words that contain my overflowing feelings
cannot reach you anymore.

Where are you now?
Who are you being with?
What kind of clothes are you wearing?
What are you doing and laughing at?
I am right here.
Even now, I am right here.
And I still believe that we will see each other again.
Youre the only one Im thinking of.

Just once more,
I want you to stand at my back with your tied hair
asking me 'Guess who it is~~~'
and expecting me to say out your name.*
Just the two of us being silly like that day by day.

I cant forget you,
But the truth is, I dont want to forget you.
I cant feel even a bit of happiness
because youre not by my side.
No matter how hard I try,
Ill end up crying
and my tears just wont stop.

Where are you now?
Who are you being with?
What kind of clothes are you wearing?
What are doing and laughing at?
I am right here.
Even now, I am right here.
I still believe that we will see each other again.
Youre the only one Im thinking of.

Therefore, I am right here
singing the song by myself.
Even though I dont have any reason to embrace this pain anymore,
I cant help doing it.

Even if I know that the days
when you were by my side making my world shine
wont come back again,
and no matter what will happen,
no matter how far Im lost,
I never ever want to forget that my heart has chosen to love you.

No matter where you are,
no matter who you are being with,
no matter what kind of dream you are dreaming of,
or what you are doing and laughing at,
I will be here forever.
Even now, I right am here,
believing in a day that we will meet again.

This feeling wont change,
and you are the only one Im thinking of.
This feeling wont change,
and you are the only one Im thinking of.

whee whee~~ long time no see!!!

2009-05-03T21:08:00.004+09:00

still remember my big fuji apple aka watermelon face? :P Thx to ppls who concern about me, just want to say thank you and tell you guys i'm fine =) *see my face is still big and round XD*

ish angle prob

do we look alike?? XD
this one is face prob. zzz =/ bare wit me la, din play camera for quite some time adi. Hmm nah la i din plan to put this up de, but since...hmm...put la..:P

=)

2009-04-30T00:58:00.004+09:00

you will never know how dbsk's song can cheer me up. xD

AND!!!!! letme introduce you my 2nd husband!!! WAAAAAAAAAA!!!
lee junki!!! LEE JUNKI!!!

nice song from mika :)

悟?

2009-04-30T00:01:00.007+09:00

最近发生的一切让我对人生有了一个新的领悟。

突然有了传说中一夜成长的感觉，
长女，原来真的不是那么好当的。

真正关心你的人，
也许他们在平时并没什么与你联络，
又或者并不时常说些顺耳的话来娱乐你，
但是在你发生不如意的事情的时候，
他们一定是在第一时间挺身而出，
那怕只是一通慰问电话，一些建议，一些不怎么顺便的顺便帮忙，
这一切的一切，都会令心情低落的我们浮现出少少笑容。

真的。这一起车祸告诉了我，谁对我好和谁只会口头敷衍我。
更教会了我凡事只可以靠自己，
因为，身边一些所谓很亲密的人到头来只会敷衍你一两句，
告诉你不要伤心so on 而已。

我和妈妈都有着不喜欢求人的脾气，
除非是别人主动offer他们自己，
否则我们就算是怎样也无发硬着头皮去麻烦身边的各位。
也因为这个原因令我明白到靠自己的重要性。

虽然如此，我还是要向每个帮过我们的人致谢，
让我明白到原来身边还是有那么多的好人。
至于那些令我失望的人，
我还是要感谢你，让我知道你是怎么样的一个人。

soli la, i tried to stop myself from emo, but i failed. Too many things to handle and too many responsibility to carry. I want to become someone that she can rely on tho there's no one for me to rely.

i admitted im kinda emotional unstable nowadays, sorry yea if i emo for no reason to you..:P

IF

2009-04-29T23:12:00.002+09:00

如果可以回到从前，
我或许不会让这一切发生。

有时回头一看，猛然发觉我好象不同了，是失去自我了吗？
我。。。再也不能像以前那样了吧！
宝仪你究竟开心吗？
如果真的有一条分隔线，那么快乐和悲伤，谁占据了比较大的位置？

我痛恨不能狠下心来的我。
我痛恨不能坚持下来的我。
我痛恨总是心软的自己。
但是我最痛恨的是，为什么我会改变这么多？

我不止一次地反问自己，
这。。。真的是我所要的吗？
为什么我会那么不开心？

ps: dont ask me for reasons. I just want to release myself. This is my place, the only place that i can pour things, dont spoil it, pls.

Daddy i miss you.

2009-04-24T10:02:00.002+09:00

How i wish you were beside me when all this happened.

i really, miss you alot. =(

so hard to learned to be independent and rational, so hard to hold my tears and tell myself to not cry because it helps nut, so hard to stop myself from regretting for what mistake I'd make, so hard to look at the others suffering because of me. What kind of shyt person im??

can i cry?? just a little while, let me be a lil kid, can i?

Don't judge a book by its cover!!!!

2009-04-21T22:51:00.002+09:00

THIS
she is amazing aint you think??

我结婚是抱着妻子进家门的～

2009-04-21T21:55:00.000+09:00

A nice story =)

妻说，是你将我抱进家门的，要离婚了，你再将我抱出这个家门吧。
　　
　　与妻结婚的时候，我是将她抱过来的。那时我们住的是那种一家一户的平房，婚车在门前停下来的时候，一伙朋友撺纵着我，将她从车上抱下来，于是，在一片叫好声中，我抱起了她一直走到典礼的地方。那时的妻是丰盈而成熟的娇羞女孩，我是健壮快乐的新婚男人。
　　
这是十年前的一幕。
　　
以后的日子就像是流水一样过去，要孩子，下海，经商，婚姻中的熟视无睹渐渐出现在我们之间。钱一点点地往上涨，但感情却一点点地平下去，妻在一家行政机构做公务员，每天我们同时上班，也几乎同时下班，孩子在寄宿学校上学。在别人看来，生活似乎是无懈可击的幸福。但越是这种平静的幸福，便越容易有突然变化的机率。
　　
　　我有了她。当生活像水一样乏味而又无处不在，哪怕一种再简单的饮料，也会让人觉得是一种真正的享受。她就是露儿。
　　
　　天气很好，我站在宽大的露台上，露儿伸了双臂，将我从后面紧紧抱住。我的心再一次被她感情包围，几乎让我无法呼吸。这是我为露儿买的房子。
　　
　　露儿对我说，像你这样的男人，是最吸引女孩子的眼球的。我忽然想起了妻，刚刚结婚的时候，她似乎说过一句，像你这样的男人，一旦成功之后，是最吸引女孩子的眼球的。想起妻的聪明，心里微微地打上了一个结，我清楚地意识到，自己对不起她。但却欲罢不能。
　　
我推开露儿的手，说你自己看着买些家具吧，公司今天还有事。露儿分明地不高兴起来，毕竟，今天说好了要带她去买家具的。关于离婚的那个可能，已经在我的心里愈来愈大起来，原本觉得是不太可能的事情，竟然渐渐地能在心里想像成可能。
　　
　　只是，我不知道如何对妻子开口，因为我知道，开口了之后必然要伤害她的。妻没有对不起我的地方，她依旧忙忙碌碌地在厨房里准备晚上的饭菜，我依旧打开电视，坐在那里，看新闻，饭菜很快上桌，吃饭，然后两个人在一起看电视，或是一个人坐在电脑前发会儿呆。想像露儿的身体，成了我自娱的方式。试着对妻说，如果我们离婚，你说会怎样？妻白了我一眼，没有说话，似乎这种生活离她很远。我无法想象，一旦我说出口时，妻的表现和想法。
　　
妻去公司找我时，露儿刚从我办公室里出来。公司里的人的眼光是藏不住事情的，在几乎所有人都以同情的目光和那种掩饰的语言说话的时候，妻终于感觉出了什么。她依旧对着我的所有下属以自己的身份微笑着，但我却在她来不及躲闪的一瞬间，从她的眼神中读出了一种伤害。
　　
　　露儿再次对我说，离婚吧何宁，我们在一起。我点头，心里已经将这个念头扩到非说不可的地步了。妻端上最后一盘菜时，我按住了她的手。说我有件事要告诉你。妻坐下来，静静地吃着饭，我想起了她眼神中的那种伤害，此刻分明地再一次显出来。突然间觉得自己有些不忍，但事到如今，却只能说下去。咱们离婚吧，我平静地说着不平静的事。妻没有表现出那种很特别的情绪，淡淡地问我为什么。我笑，说：不，我不是开玩笑，是真的离婚。妻的态度骤然变化起来，她恨恨地摔了筷子，对我大声说，你不是人！
　　
　　夜里，我们谁也没理谁，妻在小声地哭，我知道她是想知道为什么。但我却给不了她答案，因为我已经在露儿给我的感觉里无法自拔。我起草了协议给妻看，里面写明了将房子，车子，还有公司的30股权分给她。写这些东西时，心里是一直怀了对妻的歉疚的，妻愤愤地接过，撕成碎片儿，不再理我。我感觉自己的心竟然隐隐地有些疼起来，毕竟是一起生活了十年的爱人，所有的温柔都将在未来化去，就这样的慢慢的过去，到了第二天．
　　
　　陪客户喝酒，半醉的我回到家中时，妻正伏在那里写着什么。我躺在床上睡去，醒来的时候，发现妻依旧坐在那里。我翻个身，再沉沉地睡去。终于闹到了非离不可的地步，妻却对我声明，她什么也不要我的，只是在离婚之前，要我答应她一个条件。妻的条件简单，便是再给她一个月的时间，因为再过一个月，孩子就过完暑假了，她不想让孩子看到父母分开的场面，而且，在这一个月里还要像以前那样生活。
　　
　　我接过妻写的协议，她问我，何宁，你还记得我是怎么嫁过来的吗？蓦地，关于新婚的那些记忆涌上来，我点头，说记得。妻说，是你将我抱进来的，但是我还有个条件，就是要离婚了，你再将我抱出这个家门吧。这一来一去，都是你做主好了，只是，我要求这一个月，每天上班，你都要将我抱出去，从卧室，到大门。
　　
　　我笑，说：好。我想妻是在以这种形式来告别自己的婚姻，或是还有对过去眷恋的缘故。我将妻的要求告诉了露儿，露儿笑得有些轻佻，说再怎么还是离婚，搞这么多花样做什么。她似乎对妻很不屑，这或多或少让我心里不太舒服。
　　
　　一个月为限，第一天，我们的动作都很呆板。因为一旦说明之后，我们已经有很久没有这么亲密接触过了，甚至连例行的每周两次的****时间也取消了，每天都像路人一样。儿子从身后拍着小手说，爸爸搂妈妈了，爸爸搂妈妈了，叫得我有些心酸。从卧室经客厅，出房门，到大门，十几米的路程，妻在我的怀抱里，轻轻地闭着眼睛，对我说，我们就从今天开始吧，别让孩子知道。我点头，刚刚落下去的心酸再一次地浮上来。我将妻放在大门外，她去等公交，我去开车上班。
　　
　　第二天，我和妻的动作都随意了许多，她轻巧地靠在我的身上，我嗅到她清新的衣香，妻确实是老了，我已有多少日子没有这么近的看过她了，光润的皮肤上，有了细细的皱纹。我怎么没发现过妻有皱纹了呢，还是自己已是多久没有注意到自己这个熟悉到骨头里的女人了呢。
　　
　　第三天，妻附在我的耳边对我说，院子里的花池拆了，要小心些，别跌倒了。
　　
　　第四天，在卧室里抱起妻的时候，我有种错觉，我们依旧是十分亲密的爱人，她依旧是我的宝贝，我正在用心去抱她，而所有关于露儿的想像，都变得若有若无起来。
　　
　　第五天，六天，妻每次都会在我耳边说一些小细节，衣服熨好了挂在哪里，做饭时要小心不要让油溅着，我点着头，心里的那种错觉也越来越强烈起来。
　　
　　我没有告诉露儿这一切。感觉到自己越来越不吃力了，似乎是锻炼的结果，我对妻说，现在抱你，不怎么吃力了。
　　
　　妻在挑拣衣服，我在一边等着抱她出门。妻试了几件，都不太合适，自己叹了口气，坐在那里，说衣服都长肥了。我笑，但却只笑了一半，我蓦然间想起自己越来越不吃力了，不是我有力了，而是妻瘦了，因为她将所有的心事压在心里。那一瞬间，心里紧紧地疼起来，我伸出手去，试图去抚妻的额角。
　　
　　儿子进来了，爸爸，该抱妈妈出门了。他催促着我们，似乎这么些天来，看我抱妻出门，已经成了他的一个节目。妻拉过儿子，紧紧地抱住，我转过了脸不去看，怕自己将所有的不忍转成一个后悔的理由。从卧室出发，然后经客厅，屋门，走道，我抱着妻，她的手轻巧而自然地揽在我的脖子上。我紧紧地拥着她的身体，感觉像是回到了那个新婚的日子，但妻越来越轻的身体，却常常让我忍不住想落泪。
　　
　　最后一天，我抱起妻的时候，怔在那里不走。儿子上学去了，妻也怔怔地看着我说，其实，真想让你这样抱到老的。我紧紧地抱了妻，对她说，其实，我们都没有意识到，生活中就是少了这种抱你出门的亲密。
　　
　　停下车子的时候，我来不及锁上车门，我怕时间的延缓会再次打消我的念头。我敲开门，露儿一脸的惺松。我对她说，对不起露儿，我不离婚了。真的不离了。露儿不相信一般看着我，伸出手来，摸着我的头，说你没发烧呀。我打开露儿的手，看着她，对她说，对不起露儿，我只有对你说对不起，我不离婚了，或许我和她以前，只是因为生活的平淡教会了我们熟视无睹，而并不是没有感情,我今天才明白。我将她抱进了家门，她给我生儿育女，就要将她抱到老，所以，只有对你说对不起。
　　
　　露儿似乎才明白过来，愤怒地扇了我一耳光，关了门，大哭起来。我下楼，开车去公司。路过那家上班时必经的花店的时候，我给妻子订了一束她最喜欢的情人草，礼品店的小姐拿来卡片让我写祝语，我微笑着在上面写上：我要每天抱你出家门，一直到老。
　　
　　
　　男的都应该用心看看，每个男人到你成功时，也许都会有这种经历，学学吧，不要让自己老时后悔了,伤害最大的是孩子，如果成功后不要妻子，还不如不要成功，一家过苦日子也许也是幸福。

lunch=bread?

2009-04-15T23:09:00.003+09:00

Hmm, can you believe i spend 2 days to open a new saving account? My company only pay us trough maybank, arhhh!! Troublesome troublesome!! Which mean i gonna transfer my money from bank to bank after i get my salary EVERY month :S

人，都是很现实的生物。
与其浪费时间说爱他，
倒不如用实际行动来证明。
i like this =)

im VERY VERY unhappy!!

2009-04-13T23:42:00.003+09:00

arhhhhhhhh!!!! my stupid camera spoiled and i cant blog using my phone's low quality picture!! Gosh! why la my phone's cyberchot so laoya wan?

laoya laoya laoya LAOYAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! ish ish mm song!!

Im not happy

2009-04-12T12:37:00.004+09:00

Tried my best to not sound out my prob here because i know it would be rather unfair since i din even have a proper talk with you about this.

Its a weird feeling, emo feeling. Feel like talking feel like screaming. Weird huh. Hmm dont ask me why because nobody knows even myself.

Dear cy maybe you were right, its dangerous. I might burst anytime. Really , now i understand how scary it is. Hmm give me some times, i will sort it out as promise. But i just cant stop myself from feeling emo and unhappy now.

a nice song =)

my camera spoiled!

2009-04-08T00:47:00.001+09:00

wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtfffffffffff!

whee~

2009-04-06T01:01:00.002+09:00

im starting my new job tomorrow. Wish me good luck yea~ Hopefully my new colleague is all friendly *finger cross* pray hard for me yea~

I feel like going for a vacation.

2009-04-05T13:17:00.004+09:00

hmm, genting might be a good choice?
nah, not their theme park but the wind there. Anyone wanna join me?

emo os the day. swt

2009-04-04T12:48:00.000+09:00

appreciate the one you love before its too late.

xD emo~~~lulala~

Some flash back..

2009-04-01T22:49:00.004+09:00

Just dig out some old pictures in my phone. Gonna record it down before i forget wat was happening xD

the day where we were playing badminton and cycle around after study.

they day where we were so fed on our math2 paper. I remember, the DE question!!! ouch! :P

the day where we stand beside the library window and try to recognize cars [ok la, it was me who cant differentiate myvi and avanza, vios and honda, etc etc]

the day where we were so broke and left no choice except this cheap RM4 banana leave rice as lunch

the moment where i learned how to play this thingy

the junkie that we brought from korean town

the day where we went boutique bazaar, starbucks SS2, McD SS2, Asia cafe and starbucks SS15 =.= XD

the day where we were so boring and playing around with camera XD

the idea i'd come out with to celebrate someone's bday [whee~ i drew that LOVE shape!!!!]

the Nips that we try to hide away from the library guard.

the purple vapour that make me hyper for no reason? :/

woolala~

2009-04-01T21:07:00.004+09:00

ok, i have a good new and a bad new to share.

the bad new is, i JUST resign on last week and whee~ im jobless!!! xD

AND,

the good new is, i passed my interview and gonna start my new job on monday!! LALALA~ shorter working time, higher pay, nearer to my house, and.... more stress maybe? haha, tell you guys when i start working.. XD

测试你是哪一种美丽女巫?

2009-03-25T23:58:00.004+09:00

1．假如设你是动物王国的成员，你觉得自己是：

A．孔雀－3
B．刺猬or小绵羊－2
C．狗狗－3

2．某天你在森林深处迷路，前面有一座房子，里面可能住着：

A．白雪公主和七个小矮人－4
B．会施魔法的坏巫婆－5
C．森林的最高统治者－5

3．每个女孩都是天上的花神下凡，你想做什么花神？

A．牵牛花－4
B．天山雪莲－2

4．家里的小猫咪朝你＂喵喵＂地叫唤，你会：

A．马上去拿猫粮，拿来喂给它－6
B．举着猫粮在它百前晃晃，逗它玩一阵再给它－5

5．长颈鹿和熊猫赛跑，途中几只小狗在打排球，你觉得长颈鹿会：

A．假装没看见，不理它们－6
B．觉得好玩，打会儿排球再跑－6
C．心想它们的技术真差，根本无法和自己的相比－7

6．同事小玲在找她的钢笔，你知道放在哪里了，你会：

A．走过去指给她看钢笔在哪里－8
B．看她着急的表情，你偷着乐，过一会再告诉她真相－7
C．赶紧告诉小玲她把钢笔放在哪里了－7

7．下班了，经理忽然把你叫住，说你今天怎么不戴胸卡，你会：

A．朝他吐吐舌头，然后笑着走开－8
B．瞥他一眼，然后一言不发转身就走－10
C．向他解释，并保证以后不会再忘记戴了－9

8．你跌入了一个山谷，你觉得会发生什么奇遇？

A．碰到了武林高人－9
B．来到了世外桃园－10
C．来到了一个气氛诡异的村庄－11

9．你遇到一个有着魔法的仙女你会选择让她把你变成：

A．灰姑娘－10
B．拇指姑娘－10

10．你是美丽的公主，乌龟请求你亲吻它，你会：

A．给它一个甜甜的吻－11
B．这么难看怎么能吻呢－12
C．它要是答应陪自己玩，就吻它－11

11．闭上眼睛，你的眼前会浮现：

A．魔鬼－13
B．白雪公主－14
C．精灵鼠小弟－14
D．《白雪公主》中的皇后－12

12．城堡举办了盛大的舞会，你觉得自己会不会是舞会上最抢眼的公主，没有人可以和你媲美？

A．YES－16
B．NO－14

13．同学们都在走廊上踢毽子，你会走过动加入他们吗？

A．YES－14
B．NO－18

14．你最喜欢自己走在：

A．开满鲜花的庄园－15
B．人烟稀少的小径－16
C．曲曲折折的小桥－17
D．摩登大厦的顶楼－18

15 - 善良的小巫师艾薇儿

你的心是泉水做的，散发着淡淡的清香，就像没有沾染过世俗气息的净土，温柔善良，感情丰富，有爱心，总是乐于助人，是典型的＂乖乖女＂；为人单纯坦率，没有任何心计，所以以容易相信别人，一粒沙，一株草，都可以打动你．
NOOO NOO NOO!!!! im very tricky de lo pls!!

16 - 孤傲的小巫师亚莉克斯

你就像希腊神话中的纳雪瑟斯，是水仙花的化身．往往自视甚高，很多时候都是过着一个人的生活，别人总是因为感觉到你身上有股逼人的寒气，而不敢轻易接近，所以其他人很难贴近你的内心世界！

17 - 顽皮的小巫师莎拉拉

你就像活泼可爱的蓝精灵一样，永远都充满了活力与青春的气息；总是不甘寂寞，不甘老老实实地坐着，所以你往很受周围人的喜爱．

18 - 怪癖的小巫师阿希莉

你的眼睛里总是能看到与别的不同的东西，脑子里打转的也是一些古怪的想法，因此常常被当成“怪人”！在外人看来，你给人的感觉是怪怪的，还有点冷冷的，难以亲近，其实你的心地还是很善良的，只不过你做“好人”的方式与众不同.

ATTENTION!!!

2009-03-25T22:35:00.002+09:00

I NEED A JOB

seriously lo, i cant bare with the stupid job anymore, its suck SUCK SUCK to the maxxxxx!!!!! I might go insane and suicide if i stay there longer, gosh those politics, long working hours, old experienced fella, nah im not gonna stay there anymore!!! [pm a, you understand de hor :(]

The moment i miss..

2009-03-22T15:58:00.001+09:00

that was like soooooo soooo long ago. woah >.<

~.~

2009-03-21T12:51:00.001+09:00

just realize my blog is now full with many unnecessary craps. Ok, la i confess, i couldn't find my camera. hmm it should be in somewhere in my house.. hmm, wait la i gonna dig it out later..

and ohya we'll be having our class party tonight, hope i can get some picture for you all yea ;)

Happy Birthday

2009-03-18T23:03:00.002+09:00

To Steven aka (@V@)!!!!
eh i only got 1 picture ler swt swt..Anyway, happy bday and wish you get everything tat you aim and dream for especially... erherm.. you know la, hor? XD

you oowe your secret weapon a meal dun forget, if not this sat...USCI... muahahaha~~

Announcement!!!

2009-03-18T00:18:00.002+09:00

my phone will not be with me for this 2 days, so dun mad if i didnt reply your msg ya :(

Dear phone.

2009-03-17T13:11:00.002+09:00

how can you treat me this way? You know me, i cant live without sms, please be alrite kay? *im trying hard to not dump you down from 7th floor* Nah, im damn broke now, dun force me to change a new phone la, at least not now >.<

Hi everyone!!!!

2009-03-16T22:16:00.005+09:00

see see the balloon is soOOO big!!!! woahahaha~~!!!! *and its proven my bro's camera skill suck swt =.= * xD

arhh im not honest at all!!! I got a kind of bad feelings.
Im pretending, gosh!!!!!god know much i want to be with you.

Spot the title!!!!

2009-03-15T12:39:00.000+09:00

GODIVA!!!!!!!

nah i prefer choco compared to book XDD

Grrrrr

2009-03-14T11:11:00.004+09:00

you don't know how much i miss this T.T

im happy

tho my face look big and round
tho im crazy
i miss the moment we use to hang out and camhore, now no ppl wanna camhore with me adi :(
and i lost the urge to pose and..... smile.
i just miss last time.

hmm i feel moody now, dont ask me why because i dont know, seriously no idea...hmm.. anyway, am goin to facon edu fair later, hopefully will get something there la.

2009-03-13T20:43:00.002+09:00

nah i still thinkin i look betta in smiling but not crying :)

Teng Poh Yi

2009-03-11T22:44:00.002+09:00

it will never gonna be too late to regret. You still have time, dun be frus, you need to mark up and punish yourself to study hard after this. Remember the F that you get, bare in mind. Stop feeling sad and face the truth, you cant change the fact.

2009-03-10T12:49:00.002+09:00

going to school now. Pray hard for me, hopefully this is the last time i feel regret and frus.

im nervous, but will be alrite becuz i have your luck with me :)

小故事测你性格阴影

2009-03-10T12:07:00.002+09:00

一天，在森林里，一只大肥猪和一只小瘦猪，遇到了一只大灰狼，你觉得这个故事怎么接下去比较合理呢？

A、大肥猪吓唬小瘦猪说：“大灰狼要吃掉你啦！”

B、小瘦猪对大灰狼说：“我又瘦又小，还是用大肥猪能做出更多的肉肠。”

C、大肥猪对小瘦猪说：“别怕，我又大又壮，可以保护你的。”

D、大肥猪和小瘦猪都被大灰狼吃掉啦！

E、它们三个成了好朋友

分析结果:

选择A的你，是一个有霸权心理的小孩。无论你的外表多么温顺，但在内心深处，你有着一种超出常人的优越感。你也往往对自己在某一方面的才能感到相当自信。就算帮助别人，也是为了能够展现自己的这种优越呢！

选择B的你，是一个胆小怯懦的小孩。你的心灵，缺乏足够的安全感。小小的异常状况，就能让你忧郁不安好些日子。如果不能自己说服自己，那么别人的安慰往往没有什么用呢！为了保护自己，你的思想和行为也容易因为害怕而变得具有攻击性！

选择C的你，是一个乐观，具有正义感的小孩。你对这个世界的看法公正，承认美好和邪恶并存；而且相信通过自己和大家的努力，邪恶也能被克服。因此在日常生活中，只要还有努力的空间，你都会尽量去争取，要你屈服可不是那么容易的事呢！

选择D的你，是一个老成持重的小孩。你有着和年龄不相称的成熟，像老人一样思虑过度，用惯性思维来看待进行中的事物；甚至会因为对某件事物悲观的预测，而放弃了努力的机会。自己就算真心喜爱某样东西，也会自觉地把它当作“无理要求”拼命压抑住，真是很辛苦呢！ wtf man, why so accurate, even me myself also din realize, blekk, you girls are correct i like to think think think predict bad stuff and GIVE UP swt =.=

选择E的你，是一个天真乐观的小孩。你相信这个世界是美好的，邪恶的事物最终都将被美好所感化。因此，你对他人通常没有任何防备之心。或者你现时所处的优越环境，根本就没有让你受到伤害的机会。但是这样处于真空状态的你，一旦受伤，往往会伤得比任何人都很重！

Nightmare.

2009-03-10T01:40:00.004+09:00

Hmm the story is, our stpm's result, is out T.O.D.A.Y wtf wtf wtf wtf man!

Nah tell me if i can
-open my mouth and smile after looking at my sucky result?
impossible.

-go and celebrate with my frens?
crazy

-still eat?
of course, that's the way i destress.

-frustrated and hide in a little corner?
maybe

-scold myself and regret.
definately

-run away from hrmm erm peoples?
i will tho i know im not suppose

-jump down from a building?
there's still some probability tho its low

ok enough crap, i can actually get my result online NOW but, ok la call me coward, i dun dare >.< what if my result really like shytt and wat if i fail? what if i cant get into uni? what if i can get even a cert? what if what if..AAA*bang head*

3rd post

2009-03-07T03:33:00.002+09:00

of the day omg... wait la i gonna post more soon i think swt :P

omg this is so so so so sweet aint you think? XD

Nah, too bad

2009-03-07T02:51:00.003+09:00

i admit la, im such a poser *poser failed to be i noe >.<* yesh!!!! its handsome divie again XD

aish im not suppose to open flash i noe, poor divie look so pale? white? odd? faceless? ish ish ish!!

-result is out on tues omg!! dun think i still have mood to talk and play on that day, prepare yourself for my funeral la.. sigh. :(

Ms TPY,

2009-03-07T00:04:00.002+09:00

this is the worse you can go! Mark up pls.

ohyeah, tomorrow=my off day, lalala~~ gaigai gaigai!!!

AAAA~

2009-03-04T13:13:00.002+09:00

ish i'd moved to puchong again..AAAAA again!!!! Gonna stay here for like few month before i continue study, hack me there la.. *meow, you tau tau pandai pandai la XDD*

one picture that i grab from cy.. i adi look this fat before i start working.. ==

immawa blogging in some unknown place swt.. lalala~ siam gonna work soon.. bubye~!